What is here is surrender; trusting that my actions, thoughts and deeds are managed by my guides, my God, my God-self, me!
I had this realization today that my original state was not one of competitiveness and high ambition. That my natural state as a teenager and whatever you did and where you excelled was because you just did it. You didn’t think about it. You felt like you didn’t deserve it and you have continued to believe that you didn’t deserve those victories — but that was your natural state. You didn’t work hard at it, you just did it. Not because there was no competition, but because you were doing what you were meant to do. Today you have the sense that you’re not fast enough, you don’t work out enough, do enough, get further faster than other people in this lifetime and that’s just it– you are You. You have a different purpose in this life. It’s not to be that overachiever, it’s not to be first all around, it is in fact to honor your connection to Source and take your cues from your Divine Guidance and not from people around you. You have sought outside help so much- learned- studies- researched- you’ve done it all. Now it’s time to trust that all you need is already within you. All that you are is the biggest ambition that you’ve aspired for- just living up to your promise. Keeping that connection with God and so fully trusting that your next steps will be revealed to you. Just be sure to listen for the cues. This requires quiet, it requires you to trust, it requires you to listen just to your inner guidance and not outer guidance.